i am so bored. and it's not because i've just been sitting around doing nothing. because i've been going out as much as i can just to distract myself from it. but i'm bored everywhere. people are boring. places are boring.
this place gives me the shits and i just want to get out of it.
sometimes the idea of death sounds morbidly more fascinating, because nobody knows what lies beyond it.
i hate knowing everything. where's the excitement in that?
i can't hold relationships because they're boring. knowing who you're meant to be thinking about, spending your day with, what's going to happen, all that.
i want to be stupid and naive and reckless, and i want to never regret anything ever. i want to make so many mistakes so that nobody knows what to do with me anymore. i want to be completely and utterly helpless.
