Sunday, April 3, 2011

if i lost who i am i would not be able to live. how do you do it?

it's funny how people who used to take up so much meaning in your life can suddenly mean nothing at all. remember me? we used to be close. tell each other things. things that mattered. some things that didn't mean anything at all. but what counted was that we were friends. there for each other. and now, i couldn't care less. when we talk there's nothing to say. and that only happens when one of us is bored.

and you've changed. for the worse. you've lost who you used to be. in a way i'm glad i never really let you know everything about me, the truths i'll never face. and yet without knowing every detail about you i know exactly what makes you tick. exactly the reasons for doing the things you do. how high are you going to crawl before you come crashing back down again? i wonder. you're trying to create a new persona, to be the person you think the world wants you to be. but you're wrong. so, so wrong. and you're ruining yourself.

as for me? i'll always be the same.
the same secretive, dreamy, sad little girl that wants to fly away to the stars.
always.