even angels have their wicked schemes

but you take that to new extremes

let the paranoia sink in

do you really know what you're in for?

i don't want to say it

because saying it makes it real

i fucking hate regina spektor

Hey remember the time when I found a human tooth down on Delancey 
Hey remember that time we decided to kiss anywhere except the mouth 
Hey remember that time when my favorite colours were pink and green 
Hey remember that month when I only ate boxes of tangerines 
So cheap and juicy, tangerines 

Hey remember that time when I would only read Shakespeare 
Hey remember that other time when I would only read the backs of cereal boxes 
Hey remember that time I tried to save a pigeon with a broken wing 
A street cat got him by morning and I had to bury pieces of his body in my building's playground 
I thought I was going to be sick, I thought I was going to be sick 

Hey remember that time when I would only smoke Parliaments 
Hey remember that time when I would only smoke Marlboros 
Hey remember that time when I would only smoke Camels 
Hey remember that time when I was broke 
I didn't care I just bummed from my friends 
Bum, bum, bum, bum, bum... 

Hey remember that time when you od'ed 
Hey remember that other time when you od'ed for the second time 
Well in the waiting room while waiting for news of you I hallucinated I could read your mind 
And I was on a lot of shit too but what I saw, man, I tell you it was freaky, freaky

a shadow derives from both light and an object

which means it can be manipulated by playing with light, the object or both.

this is a good idea

you wouldn't do it if it wasn't.

dreams aren't what they used to be.

Save some face, you know you've only got one
Change your ways while you're young

lolllllllllllipops.

Once you have measured your BMI, you can determine your healthy weight range. If your BMI is:

• Under 18 - you are very underweight and possibly malnourished.

welcome to the house of fun

if you want to know the secret of how to not parent a child, come to my house. we'll show you how it's done.

milk and money

Tell me where you been to
Point me to the door
I've seen you around 
But I really can't be sure
If all the action men are busy
Climbing up the wall
Banging on the window
Tearing down the hall

And the last chance girl
In her first dance swirl
Lays her head down on the wooden floor
Won't be dancing any more

And where do they go when the thrills have gone
The last song plays down in Babylon
Five hundred kids shout "what's the deal?"
It's a very confusing way to feel

The radio is silent
Except for wicked bands
Sounded like the last one
Always in demand
And now the city is off limits
To everyone in blue
Nothing's getting in there
No-one's getting through

And it's no surprise
When the last guy dies
And the girl upon the wooden floor
Won't be dancing any more

And where do they go when the thrills have gone
The last song plays down in Babylon
Five hundred kids shout "what's the deal?"
It's a very confusing way to feel

we might as well be strangers in a different place

I don't hate you, I never could. I don't regret meeting you, I never will. But I do regret our relationship. It destroyed the best thing we had, our friendship. All I could wish for at the moment is to have back what we lost.


all i could wish for? i mean, i don't feel as um drastic as that, but it would be nice if we were friends again.

on the pursuit of happiness

because, as you know, goats will eat almost anything.

so you're sitting outside in the dark and looking up at the night sky, looking up at the stars.
the stars, there's so many of them, but only a few are really shining brightly. so imagine that the biggest stars are your best friends, the other stars are your family, friends and everyone else around you;
but you've forgotten something.
the moon.
who is your moon?

je vais bien, ne t'en fais pas

stoner music

listening to stuff made by people when they were high is the most relaxing thing ever. just quietly.

nonexistence.

how do i even get into moods like this? where i just regret everything i've ever done and just want to erase the last year or so of my life and re-live it all the way things should have happened?

nobody.

who are you to tell me what to say think do speak write draw create destroy sing listen to eat drink hope for long for desire love hate dream, who are you to tell me how to live my life?

why did i let you in, when keeping you out was so much easier?

i was bored, you were bored, so what the fuck? i should have just stayed bored.

what was i thinking what was i thinking what was i thinking why wasn't i thinking?

nonentity.

i'm falling
i can't see, i can't hear, i don't know where i am
all i know is that i'm going forever down and down
falling
into some hollow void where nothing exists but what's left of the truth that was never said

tell my mother, my dog and clowns

Under blue moon I saw you
So soon you'll take me
Up in your arms
Too late to beg you or cancel it
Though I know it must be the killing time
Unwillingly mine


Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him


In starlit nights I saw you
So cruelly you kissed me
Your lips a magic world
Your sky all hung with jewels
The killing moon
Will come too soon

love is simple

i just thought because it's that commercial gimmick day known as valentines day, i'd waste my time posting all these cute little love letters that i've picked up over the past year.

i'd be a better person on the other side, i'm sure

but i may as well start now.

don't be afraid

don't be afraid
it's only love


love is simple


don't be afraid
you're already dead


love is simple

so, today i got stuck in a tree.

i don't know how it happened. one minute i was on the ground, next minute i was up in a tree and couldn't figure out how to get down...

run out of words, run out of time

"you know it's over when the burning and the yearning inside your heart isn't there anymore."

so ms. cheng sent this back to me (why the hell??) and i thought, what am i to do with this? and thus, i decided to place it here.

Your Top Strength

Creativity, ingenuity, and originality Thinking of new ways to do things is a crucial part of who you are. You are never content with doing something the conventional way if a better way is possible.

Your Second Strength

Judgment, critical thinking, and open-mindedness Thinking things through and examining them from all sides are important aspects of who you are. You do not jump to conclusions, and you rely only on solid evidence to make your decisions. You are able to change your mind.

Your Third Strength

Perspective (wisdom) Although you may not think of yourself as wise, your friends hold this view of you. They value your perspective on matters and turn to you for advice. You have a way of looking at the world that makes sense to others and to yourself.

Your Fourth Strength

Social intelligence You are aware of the motives and feelings of other people. You know what to do to fit in to different social situations, and you know what to do to put others at ease.

Your Fifth Strength

Fairness, equity, and justice Treating all people fairly is one of your abiding principles. You do not let your personal feelings bias your decisions about other people. You give everyone a chance.

which version of reality is this?

there are kinds of people who exist in this world that...shouldn't.

we could disappear for days and they wouldn't understand.

We give our lives to that which we give our time. I have learned that it is very difficult, if not impossible, to unclutter one’s life by starting at the top of the pile with the idea that the solution is to just get things sorted and better organised. It would be nice to get better organised, but that is not really enough. Much has to be discarded - one must actually get rid of it. To do this we need to develop a list of basics, a list of those things that are indispensable to our mortal welfare and happiness and our eternal salvation. This list must follow the right pattern and contain the correct elements needed for our sanctification and perfection. It must be the product of inspiration and thoughtful judgement between the things we really need and the things we just want. It should separate need from greed. It must be our best understanding of those things that are important as opposed to those things that are just interesting. This creates the question to be asked: what is truly essential? For example, allocating time to the reading and consuming of a piece of writing that another has written that is not necessary for human survival can also be seen by many as a waste of time. The same can be said for the time spent in the writing of such a text. And hence, that is why this blog is relatively, if not absolutely, pointless.

my heart's all broken pieces and my head's a mess.

well it's a big big city and it's always the same
can never be too pretty, tell me your name
is it out of line if i was to be bold and say
would you be mine?

so if you're lonely...

we embellish the banks of our bloodstreams

Oh but if we’re gonna escape though,
We really ought to think it through,
Would you like me to build you a go kart?

disclaimer.

dear world. this blog is not intended to insult, offend, or hurt the feelings of anyone. i take full responsibility for everything said, but along the same lines, i live in a democracy. thus, freedom of expression exists.

and seeing as this is a democracy, everyone has the right to choose what you read. you don't like what i write, then don't read it.

not that anyone's complained yet, but just in case. as i'm fully aware some of the things here could be taken as offensive. and i make no apology for it.

then again, if you seriously get upset about what some idiot insignificant sixteen year old girl has written. man up. or woman up. whatever floats your boat, really.

firsts of the lasts.

so it's been a weird couple of days. my suburb's on burglary alert because people keep leaving their windows open in the heat, queensland is in a big mess that's going to take a lot of time and money to clear up, my mum's become so lazy she's now ordering in her groceries, and it's now officially the year of the rabbit on the chinese calendar. which means i get money from all my asian relatives.

and i don't know about everyone else, but i've already got a shitload of homework and tests to look forward to, as well as lots of dull and seemingly pointless lessons that make my brain numb. but at least we're coming closer the end of the last first week of school. ever.

did i also mention the ball is in about two weeks?

last year i didn't think much of it, like, it's just a ball, waste of money etc...but i actually can't wait to see everyone i know looking absolutely stunning in their dresses. hopefully stunning. as in i hope everyone chooses nice dresses to wear...