sometimes i feel i really just don't give a shit about anyone else. i know it's selfish, but i don't know, it's like i could so easily shut myself off from the world and just not care. people could worry about me as much as they wanted to but i'd just stop everything, bar all communications with anyone and everyone. because i'm scared. scared of commitment, scared of trusting, of people relying on me. scared that i'll care too much, or not enough.
people should really think twice about being my friend, because it seems all that happens is that i move on. i'll leave you behind, without a second glance back. i may regret it one day, but it's harder to turn back the clock than you think it is.
don't you see? i can't come back to you. i'm not the person i was when i knew you.
