he's too close to perfect.
oh, he has flaws, of course he does.
but so does everybody else.
and his are outnumbered to the point that
they count for nothing.
people keep telling me it could work,
but how?
i don't deserve him.
and he definitely doesn't deserve someone
as messed up as me.
i'm unstable. emotional. indecisive.
at times, i'm heartless.
at others, i care so much
that it hurts.
why would he want me?
why would anyone?
all i do is create trouble.
i'm used to keeping a comfortable distance,
never showing my true feelings.
never telling them that really, i feel nothing,
that they mean not much to me at all.
but he is different.
there is no way in hell that i can say
that i don't feel something.
but it will never happen, and it would never work.
love never lasts.
he's not for me.
